awhhh :) I love you soo much!!! i miss you and we need to hang out ASAP!!…
I feel like i am covered with invisible scars that are slowly being mended back together. Scars that have been caused by all the hurt and pain that i have been put through. All those times I was put in the middle of situations that a little girl should never have to go through. All those times, I had to sit at your house listening to you and her scream at each other and never knowing if i was going to get hurt, never feeling truly safe. As everyday passes each scar fades away little by little, because of the strength i am gaining. For one thing i am certain, and that is i have strength like no other.
I wouldn’t say I hate anyone but I dislike a few people. Why might you be asking?
behind everyone of my smiles is a broken heart. i try to be strong. and people say im strong but im starting to think im not as strong as i thought i was. i keep getting caught up in little things that in the long run wont even matter.
its not that im upset that someone else is falling for him but that he is getting pulled into it. i dont think anyone understands how i feel about him. and i wish someone would just sit down and listen to me. i understand that people grow apart and others fill in. its just that no one ever payed any attention to me before he came along. he made me feel like i was important. he made me see someone different in the mirror. someone that was strong and pretty. someone that didnt care what others thought because he was there. he made me feel wanted. a feeling i had never felt before. he was one of the only guys in my life that made me feel like a person and not a burden to them. i dont know. i probably thought it was more than it actually was. i just wish it wasn’t such a big deal. why cant i just let go? he obviously has.
i think you need to stop. You know what youre doing wrong but you keep on doing it anyway. you are hurting so many people and dont even realize it.. i mean come on, think about someone else for a change. youre ruining your life and everyone elses.. just stop please.. go back to where you came from.. youre messing everything up here.